three nil.. now fuck off

Friday, July 10, 2009,

18 years, my life is a big pile of..

..chaos? it's just the beginning.
Every promise i made? i'm rescinding.
Center mass in the middle of the monster, i'm getting tired of drowning the constant cry for help.
It's debatable, the only reason that you love me is cause i'm hated by all.
Come on!!, come see dysfunction, hehe, I guess we're gonna leave it for open discussion.

who am I?

where am I going?

maybe I'm looking in the wrong direction?
or maybe I'm looking for any direction?

this is not my war
this is not my fight
this is something more
this is not my life
this is not my revolution
this is not my convolution
this is not my expectation
this is not my desperation...

holed up, scarred, and tamed for the hell of it now look at me!
I'm the glorified malcontent
save me? save this!
all I got to do is give up, and all is forgiven
I'm sick of being the butt of a cosmic joke and I don't get the punchline
A million people lined up for miles to see the great big mouth?

SHUT UP AND APOLOGIZE!!

this is not my only reason to question why i said goodbye..

oh I didn't need to leave so stay right here.

i am the outcast
save me?
i am the liar
break me?
i can take anything
make me?
accuse me of everything
just kill me..
cut off the system
shape me?
deny my existence
waste me?
i won't be afraid
try me?
i won't be unmade
deny me?

come on, break it off, buy the lie, say it, come on, say goodbye

oh no you don't need to leave just stay right here..

GOODBYE!!

18years.. i think i'll manage a few more (:
AlweeVon'Faux at 1:35 AM